The first day. 18.1.12 ended up with a smile :)

Today is the first day I dint contact him, he never text me and I never text him too.

This is the first step,a good beginning.At least I manage to control myself from texting him.

The feeling doesn't feel good,is awful. Really fucking damn awful.

But still,I able to smile,laugh and joke with them. Friends and family.

It has to be a bad time,I miss him. I admit,I dont escape from this.Once I feel down because of this,I will tell myself.

''Whats the point for you to miss him and make your day down?
''Its that worth?''

''No,isnt worth at all.''

He is sucks,I dare to shout it out loud to the the world,say that he is sucks. But am I too? :)

Yes I am.

I admit,sometimes I really being so unreasonable,but there is always a reason to make girls became unreasonable,agree?

The reason that make me mad always the same.Ignore me,throw me aside.

I had been waiting for you to ask me out,but you never,maybe a month once you will ask me out.
Most of the time was I requested and get rejected.

You shouted at me,I never shout back,you throw things at me I just keep my mouth shut and stay away.

So,am I still not enough for you? I do whatever you want, is that still not enough?!

And,I am a girl,I hope someone could care and cherish me,but what did you do?

Am I still not enough for you until you search for another girl?

You say you want to be single for you study,but now? You are giving excuses. Giving bullshit excuses,to make yourself feel better.

I will leave from your fucking bored life. This is the last post about you.

No more tears for you as I promised to someone else. 

So GOOD LUCK TO YOU,YOU WILL GET WHAT YOU DESERVE TO GET.

But,its over. Everything comes to the end.

The first day, 18.1.12 <3

End with a smile :)