It's been awhile since my last update. There are a lot of things happened within this year, err...not really a year.

This is the bravest decision I've ever made in my life. Ignoring how people are going to comment on me or judge me. I quit my college degree in Accounting in Disted and enrolled for Finance degree in UTAR Kampar.

Maybe it's not really a big deal for others but for me ,it's. I've never done anything that based on what I really wanted, I always follow the trend, follow what my mother says, you know they always say you'll find yourself to be regretful if you don't listen to your mother.

But for this time, I am really clear on what I am doing. I don't care how those AUNTIES ,(friends of my mother gonna talk about me). I just don't care and this is my future, if I'm not going to take care of it who's gonna take care of it? Yea I know ,right? no one will.

It's really tough as I have to work non stop to save my tuition fees again but I do it willingly, without blaming.

All I'm gonna say to myself is, rainbow comes after hurricanes. Giving up is for loser, and I ain't no loser. :D

And to my friends, who are thinking of giving up on something you want, try to rethink the reason why you've been holding it for so long. :)

I won't give up.

This is really a hard time for me.

I foresee, the route will be tough and I need to do everything all by my own.

I've to financially self-support. I know it'd would really tough but I won't regret it because it's my decision and it's a right thing to do! THIS IS THE RIGHT THING,I can't see any reckless component in this decision ,if you think this is not right prove me to convince me if I do anything wrongly in this decision.

时时告诉自己要笑，无论如何都要时时保持笑容。

因为哭 根本解决不了问题，又有谁见过小丑的眼泪呢？

How do you define ultimate love?

  痴心妄想的我。

So,tonight I ended up to be here. Why? Because I've a lot of thoughts in mind now.

Unfortunately, this is the thought that I couldn't actually share out to people. It's kinda secret so I decided to keep it to myself.

It's a forbidden kind of thought, it's not nice to tell people about this but...keeping it to myself doesn't make any better to myself. Know what? Always bring happiness to people around is what I'm good in doing ,bringing troubles to people I love? Nah, it ain't no stuff Qian Xin will do :D

Just wanna tell that, it (feeling) is sealed deep down in my heart and it won't be faded away easily. I'm still young, I've got plenty of times, so I will enjoy what I'm going to do.

Ps: I'm definitely totally 100% doing it with full willingness. 

:D

Birthday month?

I'm broke.

Everyone must be thinking that I'm really a big spender who doesn't manage her money well. 

The reason I'm broke is because every bff of mine planned to be born on the same month! So, what's more I can say? It's okay, they are my precious one so they worth it all. 

So lemme talk about what i did few weeks back, we celebrated Jeslin Teng and Nicole's birthday. It's kinda like a small gathering with the girls instead of big celebration and most of us have been separated since high school and diploma.( you know true friendship doesn't get because of distance!) So we had dinner together ,chit chatting and take photos! TONS OF THEM. (you girls reallyyy.... :x)

I'll be talking about Jeslin birthday first, we went gurney Xuan Xin for dinner and surprisingly, Jeslin previous classmates came along as well. Those nachossss!

That's a silly selfie with le best friend weline wong!

(it's hilarioussss)

After the meal, we went to the alley for coffee. Which located in the heritage site and I don't know the exact location.

So we got her jeslin bitch this instax camera. I know the latest one is mini 8 but I think there's not much difference betweens ?

Anyways, we are really glad that she is happy after she saw the present. You nag about how broke you are for all of these, but right after you see the smile from your bestie after getting it, you forget about all the naggings and you feel happy from the bottom of your heart. Ya, you feel it righttt!

As always never stopped bitching around. Selfie take 1!

Selfie take 2! <3

Take 3...

And our craziness is infinity.

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Nicole Da Yie 

I don't know why I like to call her like that. Yea really I dont know the reason.

So, we celebrated her birthday after jeslin's. We at dinner at Via Pre Italian restaurant near to the Weld Quay. Another place which near to heritage site. (I know i know we like to go there...)

So I wasn't really impressed by the food over there as it's expensive and didn't get me full!

So let's not complain about the food there, the point is Nicole's birthday!

One of the spot I found quite interesting.

The starter and it's not good.

The arabiata with I-dont-feel-any-spicy-taste in it.

So, Weline wong didn't join the dinner with us but she joined the second round coffee session with us.

We went Brew 32 cafe, Ahah! My favorite spot besides my home.

Nutella Cappuccinoooooo! Boon Yan's pick.

We went there for cake and coffee and chit-chatting. And we gave her surprise over there. Actually its not surprise, it's just she is really happy whenever she saw what we got her!

HA! Yeah, I like seeing my friends like that! That happy and uneasy-to-describe kind of face. 

And I'm happy because of that. :)

                Teeeeheeee!

See! How happy was her!!

With le birthday girrrl!

Taadaaa! So we spent the night laughing and photo taking like mad girlsss and it was really fun!

Ai ni men ohhh!

TRY again next time every time you failed for the first time.

Life has nothing much to share recently. I mean not much thoughts to share recently because I've so least time or have no extra room for thoughts. What I know is, this is the 9th week in my degree course and yet I'm still ignorant for most of the subjects. Like what did I do during the past 9 weeks? To be honest, I did do my revision and try to catch up and attend all of the classes but why huh? Still feel so helpless sometimes. Is it my problem? Yea it couldn't be others.

But guess what, you've nothing more to do except try harder and do it again and again.

You don't simply give up without trying. That's my motto. :D

B-)

Photo taken is somewhere at the heritage site.

Throwback to 2013, I remember I did make a list about what am I gonna do in 2014. (Yea,I know its still a little earlier to talk about this). So I did mention about what I want it to be accomplished in 2014. If I'm not mistaken one of them is I want to be trained to be a barista. Yeaa! I'm being trained to be right now. Ps: I'm still not a barista yet, I'm still a beginnerrrr! But I'm working hard on it.

This is me while pouring the milkkkk! I'm so excited that I can get to do this. xD 

Taaadaaa, still long way to improve yet.

Not bad what, I completed 1st wish list in the upper part of 2014. *Proud of myself.

Secondly, is to be a great girl. I think should be maintain to be a great girl because I'm always a great girl. * Sorry for this high self-esteem :P

I'm working as part while studying now, I earn my own allowances and I paid my first semester tuition fees by myself (quarterly). Yea and I didn't mess up with others so YEA i am a great girl. HAHAHAH!

Thirdly, Yea, as you have noticed I'm way too well in maintaining it. What to do right, true love is still far away yet. So I'll wait, wait for the one who will take my weirdness and craziness as the specialty of me. :)

Hey I should add one more wish to be done, POLISH MY CANTONESEEEEEEEE! I'm really sucks at it.

I love this snack so much, like it's my everything who grabs it from me who dies! 

>:(