They love me,should be loving me and no matter will not stop it. HAHAHA, I am so proud.
1st one and never can be changed is my mom. The one love me the most,educate me feed me and gave me the comfortable life. Though sometimes she use to nag me and being so annoying but then still she shows me the most love to me.Not because of she bought me a lot of stuff but is I thank to her for raising me to adult/teenager.
2nd my daddy.He did something that hurt us but still we will love him. Because he is my dad. This is the fact,I can't change it though.


3rd friends that really care about me,her. Not only her la actually I know some of you did but she gave me the feeling like my mama, like protecting sometimes. HAHAHA don't know maybe I misunderstood? Maybe.

Love when still have the chance,no regrets in life.

Tell me how to express this feeling. Do you ever feel the feeling of being humiliated? Erm..kinda awful. 

Lack of confidence always be. Never feel confident about my existence. 

Is that what human really are? Never stop expecting for higher reach,when we get something that we feel we will be 100% contented but actually we are not.

Ya that's how I feel every time, though the level I get always be in the middle or normal but I always expecting to get higher. Maybe some of them will think that I am stupid. To be honest I just think in different way, I've been answering the correct answer but because of not confident to share it out and they considered I don't know the answer, or sometimes I thought in the further way and reach further than other people then they think what I thought is ridiculous, and that makes my confidence down again.

I will feel that my life full of obstacles, but then when I got this negative thought I will wipe it away by thinking '' It's just a part of our life to make us grown.'' And sometimes I will think is that really is experience in life?

Have anyone can answer it? 

很多事情刚开始自己会认为自己接受不来，但往往自己就是不懂自己那了不起的力量。

它很抽象，摸不着看不透。它似不存在。

但如果你真的用心去发现它，它其实就很近，近到你会说：‘eh ,为什么当出我会那么地苦？根本就是很简单，一点都不难啊，但为什么我把它复杂化了呢？’

这世界不是每个人都会抱着没有讨好利益的心态去靠近一个人，那只是在于是利或弊而已。

所以不用因为一个人的改变而伤心，用最短的时间来看清一个人好过花大半年的时间和虚伪的人相处。

试试想想，那个比较痛苦？与其有泪为这样的人流，倒不如为值得的人做更有意义的事。（自己）。

凡事都是好事，这是个可爱的朋友教我的 :)

one of the wish-list in 2012

Recently I am really busy about my college life. ''what?'' Okay, I need to explain and make it clear before you guys get confused about it. My college life isn't same with others, I don't clubbing,pacing around the bar or drink like never drunk before. My college life is my kind of life style. Some of you may think that my life will be really boring but for me I will think it inversely. It's tired can't be denied, but I feel contented. 'Oh, are you feeling happy to be tortured in tiredness?' Oh well not I feel happy to be tortured, is I feel the life style that can fill up the time in a day with meaningful things feels great! *Everyone has their meaningful stuff so no point for judging, but then I still think make your health in danger isn't a meaningful thing.


I went college for every class never skip a lecture as well as tutorial. I take my time on the assignment manage it well never do last minute job. When the time I need to relax I will read some of my favourite books to make me feel better, the only way to let me imagine and having my own space. Movies , drama are the best way either. :D


Besides managing my college stuff well , I also do take care of my health. I sleep before 12am every day besides for the special case, such as weekends, vampire diaries new episode release or other new dramas too.
I do take course in work-out too. My parents agree me for going to gym to have some work-out with my friends. At least 4 times a week this is what I planned. 
A friend of mine look down upon me that I can't continue within a month. So here I want to tell you , I will prove to you you are deadly wrong Mr. Cheng! I will train a good shape and won't let you be sarcastic to me any more , btw, an advise to you , you recently look tiny and skinny work out still needed for you :P


The gym class cost is reasonable and the equipment there are much better than TARC college gym room. The facilities are better and still few classes such as belly dance class, yoga class ,kick-boxing class are provided for free. It is so damn worth than TARC -.-

So I kept my words and succeed to make the wish-list of 2012 that I made preceding year :P

So stay tuned! <3

A love that never stopped.

岁月不留人，随着时间的流失，青春也随之而去。一个女人的黄金时间是在那青春的那几年。
但，我想说，真正享受和受到爱待的女人又有几个？
从小，就担着大姐的身份，课业没能兼顾好就得离乡背景地为还在乡下里的弟妹们的肚子担起责任来，当然还有父母们。一个人在外面，没有父亲的呵护，母亲的温柔那是需要多大的勇气呢。不是每个人都做得到的。到了别乡，本以为在那儿的亲戚会关照，那知道他们的脑袋装什么，不但没关照，反而用尽所能地在她身上讨便宜，在后还说，‘一件衣服，破了就没有利用的价值’。 再以低薪的价格把她给赶走。除了在人工福利上的欺压，在居所也有残忍的作为。好听点，‘薪水给你，你可以在我那儿居住’，但那 是何为的‘居所’？让你与黑老鼠住，那是正常的居说吗？！ 你遇到的是她，心地善良永远为他人着想的她所以到现在都还能好好的，如果你遇到的是我，我想这篇文章将会寄到报馆揭发你的真面目！
她每天晚上伪俱老鼠半夜的攻击，就连老鼠都有它们正常的住所，更何况人类？


她终于离开了那诈人的公司，带着自己储蓄的钱去投她理想的事业。起步很煎难，就连要吃颗苹果也要去算，算了够钱才有得吃。但她没因此而放弃，反而让她变得更强，更能独当一面。
老天不枉有心人，让她顺利地过关，还成功地开了她的店。起初那店时合伙的，由三个伙伴开张但由于一个意见不和离开，一个没心的也干脆不干了。最后，唯独她，咬紧牙关撑下去。
一个女人，撑起一头家，自己的店，又担心自己会受骗，这是不容易的。


等到她的女儿出世了，所有的开销都是她一人包办。她的第一架车，第一所所公寓都是自己辛苦血汗钱赚回来的。她的大女儿，可以驾车了，很多人都会认为，哇，是时候享福了，有女儿载上载下，但对她来说那是恶梦的开始。
她的大女儿会比较好动，喜欢一个人驾着车自己做自己的事情，向往自由自在没有约束的生活，什么都敢试，这让她伤起脑筋。但她女儿知道妈妈的苦，只是有时候比较自我了点，不爱听劝，但她晚上睡前是有自我检讨的，有时又死爱脸不爱说出心里话。简单来说，这女儿的性格也太男性化了。
如果没错，她女儿唯一最大的梦想是，长大后想要赚大钱，让她妈过得好点，不要再为钱烦心了。
相信，苦尽甘来的道理。凡是无绝对，只看有心去实现或不。


最后我想说，妈妈我爱你，我懂我从来没有真真开口对你说过又经常让你烦心，对不起。
只是我收在心里的话实在太多了，没能全都说出来。
爱你，母亲节快乐。

女儿 上

这种感觉到底是该如何形容？有时候很憎恨他的不负责任，有时候看到他那脸孔会有莫名的同情心酸。 

是的，他之前的所做所为真的让人无法原谅。曾经何时，他是我小时后的英雄，作他为榜样，让我觉得他是唯一让我觉得‘凡大事都有爸爸在，别害怕。’

但现在，我在成长的过成中，看透了许多，明白当初的离开。好在我那开郎，凡事以笑来面对的性格，如今才能那么坚强的活着。

对我来说没有事情是额外的重要，就算它是如此的重要但也会有一天它也会离开。

人类，孤单地来到这个世界故然也会一样孤单地离开。

不要说没了谁而活不下去，我们该学习用不同的眼光来看这个世界，或许当不辛的事情发生我们能减少那种痛苦。

简单来说，做人要学会看开，用不同的方法去理解生命，人生真正的意义。

生命说长不长，说短不短，不要因为害怕失败而害怕，应该勇敢的去决定自己的未来人生。

给个例子，很多为情自杀案发生时，大家都会认为当事人很值得同情，而最该死的是对方。但我刚好有相反的想法。生命是自己的责任，母亲10月怀胎把你生出来，供书教学把你养大成人，而你为了人生中那小部分的经过而了结自己的生命，难道那不是很不为自己，家人负责吗？

所以，我写这个博文是为人提醒一件事，没有事情是重要过爱惜自己的生命。因为，那就是一个爱别人的行为。

Impermanence life.

Human, yeah one of the creature from the earth. 

Born to the world , growing in different kind of situation , make mistakes and learn from it.

Every step they are making is like obeying what should they've to do. The God gave them life and take back when it's time.

So I just curious, birth and death? They are just the same, can't decide when to come and neither go.

Has the starting point and the ending too. So sometimes it's kinda frustration. 

Outing with the girls.

Yeah!

Yeah finally we got the chance to hang out together, I mean the five of us. Really fun and happy! Though the heels that I wore made my leg hurt -.- Forget about that.
The first location was, Sweet Sixteen at Time Square.

The food there not so bad, normal normal, but the dessert is pretty good. From the looking and the taste they are good :) Have fun and chit chatting with them.

Chit-chatting xoxo

TKF, yeng liaoo laa xD

Threesome <3

Mirror mirror on the wall~

The thingy to put the toilet paper roll. =..=

Le me in the cafe :)

The next destination was the Black Ball at 1st avenue.

The dessert there not bad, but kinda sweet, actually I dont't like too sweet, makes me feel greasy. ~.~

But still not bad to try la.

TamJiak Facess :P

Look at here! :DD

Actually I don't really know the name, they ordered it when I was doing business in the toilet. =..=

After finishing the black ball, we decided to head to Straits Quay for the Chatime.

You guys sure be curious, why do we took dessert every time? LOL!

We were gone mad HAHAHAHA,this answer showed how mad am I.

Photos time! Teeheee :目

Outside Straits Quay :)

In the Chatime :DD

huh??? xDD

I love this! Thanks TKF!

Oh my sexy backkk :3

:33

Teeehheeee :DD

Weline's head was dropping off xP

Look thinner ;P

Act cute? lol...

huh?? Why?? :'(

<3 <3

Muacks!!! xDD

Finally she isn't alone! TKF~

Don't bother Tkf, weline said!

Chatime Gallery xD

At the 'cinderella stairs'!

xoxo ; :3 with weline~

 

I love the first one seriously!

#outfit of the day. #topshop #vincci+ #calvin klein.

Tired Memorable and Loves :')

Masked? Oh wait a minute.

Never judge someone or something from the surface. Yeah we learn this since we were very young,right?

But then do we actually apply it? Or so call observe and realize it? Things could be different from what you've seen.

I know the feeling so much, I understand how's it will be, awful , and doesn't feel good.

But if you make it goes on and just think that is what life exactly is, then you are pathetic. We can't change what the previous gens but the future of us is in our hand. 

HAHAHA, I posted this is to convince or maybe makes myself feel better, maybe.

What we call that? Greed?

If someone asks you '' who will you choose between 2 options, which one will you pick?'' While both of them have been important to you? You can say,''I don't know just don't make me to do this''?
Well, I've been facing this type of problem before, and the answer I gave, no doubt as the others did. I answered, I don't know what I feel and really have to make an end on it.


Took times to figure it out and when it came to the conclusion, isn't we don't know is we don't want to. This is the weakness of human. We just look for the good things,but when there will be suffered for other parties. 
For example you have to choose between 2 person that you think ''you love '' and ''the one that make it feel protective or secure''. Get confused on this kind of incident? Ya, because once you don't feel the thing you want on a side you will choose to seek for it and at the end you will want it both. Maybe the statement here make you confuse, greed is the word to make it clear. The greediness of human can't be satisfied.


Admit it, you want it more whenever you got something that you expected it will fulfill your desire or things you exhausted for. Sure still young you got the right to make your dream and make it comes true. No one gonna stop you,but not too over of course. 


I've been mumbling about what's life actually to be meant or what and most of them will pissed some of you, but you will get it when you get matured. Seriously I just don't like the complicated stuff, every day I spend is just the things that matter on me. You can say I am selfish and just care by myself, not being offensive, just so do you? :) The question, when comes to dilemma or troubles what will you think in the first place? :)