It's been awhile since my last update. There are a lot of things happened within this year, err...not really a year.

This is the bravest decision I've ever made in my life. Ignoring how people are going to comment on me or judge me. I quit my college degree in Accounting in Disted and enrolled for Finance degree in UTAR Kampar.

Maybe it's not really a big deal for others but for me ,it's. I've never done anything that based on what I really wanted, I always follow the trend, follow what my mother says, you know they always say you'll find yourself to be regretful if you don't listen to your mother.

But for this time, I am really clear on what I am doing. I don't care how those AUNTIES ,(friends of my mother gonna talk about me). I just don't care and this is my future, if I'm not going to take care of it who's gonna take care of it? Yea I know ,right? no one will.

It's really tough as I have to work non stop to save my tuition fees again but I do it willingly, without blaming.

All I'm gonna say to myself is, rainbow comes after hurricanes. Giving up is for loser, and I ain't no loser. :D

And to my friends, who are thinking of giving up on something you want, try to rethink the reason why you've been holding it for so long. :)

I won't give up.

This is really a hard time for me.

I foresee, the route will be tough and I need to do everything all by my own.

I've to financially self-support. I know it'd would really tough but I won't regret it because it's my decision and it's a right thing to do! THIS IS THE RIGHT THING,I can't see any reckless component in this decision ,if you think this is not right prove me to convince me if I do anything wrongly in this decision.

时时告诉自己要笑，无论如何都要时时保持笑容。

因为哭 根本解决不了问题，又有谁见过小丑的眼泪呢？

How do you define ultimate love?

  痴心妄想的我。

So,tonight I ended up to be here. Why? Because I've a lot of thoughts in mind now.

Unfortunately, this is the thought that I couldn't actually share out to people. It's kinda secret so I decided to keep it to myself.

It's a forbidden kind of thought, it's not nice to tell people about this but...keeping it to myself doesn't make any better to myself. Know what? Always bring happiness to people around is what I'm good in doing ,bringing troubles to people I love? Nah, it ain't no stuff Qian Xin will do :D

Just wanna tell that, it (feeling) is sealed deep down in my heart and it won't be faded away easily. I'm still young, I've got plenty of times, so I will enjoy what I'm going to do.

Ps: I'm definitely totally 100% doing it with full willingness. 

:D

Birthday month?

I'm broke.

Everyone must be thinking that I'm really a big spender who doesn't manage her money well. 

The reason I'm broke is because every bff of mine planned to be born on the same month! So, what's more I can say? It's okay, they are my precious one so they worth it all. 

So lemme talk about what i did few weeks back, we celebrated Jeslin Teng and Nicole's birthday. It's kinda like a small gathering with the girls instead of big celebration and most of us have been separated since high school and diploma.( you know true friendship doesn't get because of distance!) So we had dinner together ,chit chatting and take photos! TONS OF THEM. (you girls reallyyy.... :x)

I'll be talking about Jeslin birthday first, we went gurney Xuan Xin for dinner and surprisingly, Jeslin previous classmates came along as well. Those nachossss!

That's a silly selfie with le best friend weline wong!

(it's hilarioussss)

After the meal, we went to the alley for coffee. Which located in the heritage site and I don't know the exact location.

So we got her jeslin bitch this instax camera. I know the latest one is mini 8 but I think there's not much difference betweens ?

Anyways, we are really glad that she is happy after she saw the present. You nag about how broke you are for all of these, but right after you see the smile from your bestie after getting it, you forget about all the naggings and you feel happy from the bottom of your heart. Ya, you feel it righttt!

As always never stopped bitching around. Selfie take 1!

Selfie take 2! <3

Take 3...

And our craziness is infinity.

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Nicole Da Yie 

I don't know why I like to call her like that. Yea really I dont know the reason.

So, we celebrated her birthday after jeslin's. We at dinner at Via Pre Italian restaurant near to the Weld Quay. Another place which near to heritage site. (I know i know we like to go there...)

So I wasn't really impressed by the food over there as it's expensive and didn't get me full!

So let's not complain about the food there, the point is Nicole's birthday!

One of the spot I found quite interesting.

The starter and it's not good.

The arabiata with I-dont-feel-any-spicy-taste in it.

So, Weline wong didn't join the dinner with us but she joined the second round coffee session with us.

We went Brew 32 cafe, Ahah! My favorite spot besides my home.

Nutella Cappuccinoooooo! Boon Yan's pick.

We went there for cake and coffee and chit-chatting. And we gave her surprise over there. Actually its not surprise, it's just she is really happy whenever she saw what we got her!

HA! Yeah, I like seeing my friends like that! That happy and uneasy-to-describe kind of face. 

And I'm happy because of that. :)

                Teeeeheeee!

See! How happy was her!!

With le birthday girrrl!

Taadaaa! So we spent the night laughing and photo taking like mad girlsss and it was really fun!

Ai ni men ohhh!

TRY again next time every time you failed for the first time.

Life has nothing much to share recently. I mean not much thoughts to share recently because I've so least time or have no extra room for thoughts. What I know is, this is the 9th week in my degree course and yet I'm still ignorant for most of the subjects. Like what did I do during the past 9 weeks? To be honest, I did do my revision and try to catch up and attend all of the classes but why huh? Still feel so helpless sometimes. Is it my problem? Yea it couldn't be others.

But guess what, you've nothing more to do except try harder and do it again and again.

You don't simply give up without trying. That's my motto. :D

B-)

Photo taken is somewhere at the heritage site.

Throwback to 2013, I remember I did make a list about what am I gonna do in 2014. (Yea,I know its still a little earlier to talk about this). So I did mention about what I want it to be accomplished in 2014. If I'm not mistaken one of them is I want to be trained to be a barista. Yeaa! I'm being trained to be right now. Ps: I'm still not a barista yet, I'm still a beginnerrrr! But I'm working hard on it.

This is me while pouring the milkkkk! I'm so excited that I can get to do this. xD 

Taaadaaa, still long way to improve yet.

Not bad what, I completed 1st wish list in the upper part of 2014. *Proud of myself.

Secondly, is to be a great girl. I think should be maintain to be a great girl because I'm always a great girl. * Sorry for this high self-esteem :P

I'm working as part while studying now, I earn my own allowances and I paid my first semester tuition fees by myself (quarterly). Yea and I didn't mess up with others so YEA i am a great girl. HAHAHAH!

Thirdly, Yea, as you have noticed I'm way too well in maintaining it. What to do right, true love is still far away yet. So I'll wait, wait for the one who will take my weirdness and craziness as the specialty of me. :)

Hey I should add one more wish to be done, POLISH MY CANTONESEEEEEEEE! I'm really sucks at it.

I love this snack so much, like it's my everything who grabs it from me who dies! 

>:(

Be yourselfffffffffffffffffffffffffffff. :P

Hush baby hushhh....Yea, I've some thoughts to share again! Throwback to the previous month at this date, I was really depressed that time. I'd something that I couldn't let go and thinking there's still hopes on that something but in fact there wasn't.
On that time, I couldn't figure it out the reason and was doing really bad to myself to think about the reason. But now, I'm all  good. I let it go, and try to look and see the best of myself. From this experience, I learned something. (yay! every obstacle in your life brings you a lesson, this is so true)

Lesson 1 : Never believe on somebody so easily.
Yea, you can listen to what they say and give them response as not to be rude. But hey, don't take everything in and believe everything, because as Dr. House says ' everybody lies'. Even you, yourself.

Lesson 2 : Don't overly struggle on something.
You will finally find out the reason one day so, hush don't go nuts because of something and don't make yourself be like a mad girl who so desperate to seek for an answer that will never be answered. I remember there's a friend told me that, '' God is always on time.'' He will let you realize when it's the time.

lesson 3 : Be caution on fake people.Everyone could be really nice and friendly to you. But remember, you will never know what they are seeking from you. Don't judge or decide on someone personality so quickly, because you will ended up shocking yourself.
Taaadaaa! I know it's kinda long, but I just wanna share my life experienceeeee! And it helps me to remind myself not to do the same mistake twice.

*Oh ya, most importantly, be yourself all the time. Don't change for anybody else, because someone who truly loves you loves everything of you. Not only your appearance or the upsides of you. 

BOREDOM STRIKES AND IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THE PHOTOOOOO!

Eyyo! Boredom strikes me again so I decided to update my blog. Well, I don't have much to say it's just I'm bored yea.

Oh ya, I wanna say that, I am so stress recently and feel so fed up with everything around me. Nah, it ain't no relation to boys. It's just about my studies and stuff. I wonder if I did the right thing or wrong thing for choosing the course I'm taking now. I seem like have no interest in what I'm studying now.

Gahhhh, life right? This is the stage that everyone has to go through during their 20's.

So, suck it up and face the truth and be a good girl that can face everything by myself.

*Gosh,it's like I'm talking to myself.But whateverrrrrrrrrrr xD

避风港-Brew 32 coffee house

Hey hi thereeeee! So, I think it has been awhile since I post about happy stuff in my life. (because i've pretty much of shits to deal with few weeks back) Anyways, here's a post about my favourite spot in Penang besides my house.

Brew 32 Coffee house! Yea!! It is it! I've been working in this cafe for 2 + months, and it's like a second home to me right as I hang most of my time there. (before degree starts and after as well). I love hanging around there, as it gives me a feel like home! Like you will never feel unwanted over there. Colleagues are nice and friendly. Ps: the boss as well :P

So I think I should cut the crap, and let the photos do the job.

 

 The back view of the cafe

The front part of the cafe.(Who's the cute guy over there?! xD)

Another wider view.

This is the the most-captured part in the cafe by the customers .

The baristaaaaa! (cutest one)

The bar.

厨房猛将。

extracting....

Brunch in the cafe, and we serve breakfast for all day!

Gahhh another ice drink here..

最后，让我为你送上阳光男孩的灿烂笑容！

Move on, you have nothing to lose.

Okay, I admit that my life had too much of negative influences for the past few weeks. So I decided to save myself from that (Ikr, there's only me myself could do that). 

I've finally made up my mind after thinking for few days after he told me the truth. The cruel truth about why he decided to leave me. At first I don't believe about it, and think that it could be another reason and this isn't the real one. You know you only get to think right after you actually calmed down. 

So yea, I calmed down and think after the day, and I found that if a guy truly loves you and cares about you, he wouldn't have done this to you.
I've made up my mind. It's time to move on, there's nothing left in this relationship. It was short and it's a lesson. A lesson to see and be aware of how fake a person could be when he wants to get you.
I've got nothing to lose, sometimes its worthy to buy a lesson with broken heart. At least you know, you know how ugly the reality is and the ugliness of mankind.
Ps: I know I need to polish my English,I am so wordless.... /.\