信心是自己给的。每个人生出来时平等的，或许有些事情上有点不同。但那只在于你如何去看它。

I am just overestimated myself. They not really meant it. You are just too normal to seek for. 

So, forget about it and keep on going. No more expectation on things like that. Really not a fuck will be given next time.

everybody's got a dark side,do you love me? can you love mine?

nobody's a picture perfect but we're worth it you know that we're worth it

will you love me? even with my dark side?

Dark side - Kelly Clarkson.

Recently am reading a novel Fifty Shades of Grey.

It makes me think of this song. I don't know why just feel both are so related and saying almost the same thing.

Stop hoping.

其实。。该怎么说呢？ 从我有朋友开始，就是最怕看到朋友们之间的争执。是的，好朋友间有时是难免的。但我还是想说我真真真的的的不想看到她们这样子！看了，自己却帮不上忙真的很难受。
因为同一个人，我们之间闹了多少次的驾啊？我真的真的不要看到这样子啦···


不懂如何来形容我现在的心情。或许你，会觉得我们接近你是不怀好意，但如果我说，当初我的坚决又算什么呢？我不懂啦，伤心死了。

They are awesome.

19/6

Harvest In.

Yea. It's my birthday today.I never expect for anything at first,because I thought that today's Basic Taxation test result will be announced so I was a lil down in the morning. When I come down from my car to lecture hall, I meet the craziest hot tempered 'polite' friend, LOL Charles. He shouted to me ' Yo, Mr.Fok!' I was like -...- what the heck is this early in the morning greeted me in that way. Then I 'salute' him back with the cutest finger. After the class he said he wanted to treat me lunch as my birthday present, so we went to Harvest in for lunch. 4 of us, Charles,Yichun,Hoimin and me :D I ordered Spaghetti Carbonara, thanks Charles :P
After the lunch we continued our class as normal nothing special happened. After the class, we went for assignment discussion and spent couples of hours to do it. When we were having the discussion, I felt that Hoimin got a lot of weird action, for instance,suddenly received calls, normally she has no that much call in afternoon , so I was like why so many call? And every call she need to get out to answer it , like ' hey here's line sucks,hold on...' Then I asked Charles, your room's line very sucks? Then he answered :' nope it's Digi problem I think' HAHA！ What a good answer!
Then we finished it and go take my car and I prepared to drive home. When I wanted to start my car, I saw a Volks behind the car next to me but I din't see the car plate number, then I just forget about it *cause I don't always see Volks hanging around Tarc. So when I wanted to drop hoimin , I saw PGB*** 
OHMYGOSH! Its chee wei's car and I saw the Jes and Weline in the car too!


OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGGGGG <3.<3

Sushi by CheeweiHoiminJeslinWeline :D

Cutest and prettiest hot mama! xD

With them :')

urgggg...I don't know to how describe the feeling, at first I thought today's really no one cares because I thought everyone isn't free so can't have a dinner but they din't some more they spent hours for the SURPRISE!


They spent hours to prepare SUSHI for me. And Weline got home late and was scolded by mum. OH NO , I am so sorry :( But then I appreciate what you guys done to me. Really . And hoimin, the one who try to act like nothing is really hard casting! HAHAHA~ thanks you guys . Really do...
Actually we did went to E&O hotel for buffet one, but because of some reason so I din't mention it here before, but now I am going to share. And thanks the one who treated us, CHEE WEI muacksss. I appreciate what you did to me and all of you :')

I know I am fat in these photos :(

*Mom.Bro.Kakak-maid.Uncle Seng.

My mom,she bought me a cake and we prepare to celebrate in a simple way, just me mum brother kakak and uncle seng. I love you all, family and friends! And my aunt present me an angpau :P

They love me and I love them too very much :')

Oh ya, and a face sipek tebal de guy ask me to mention him here. Tan Linghoe! Wished me for more then 4/5 times? I guess. Hahaha, thank you for you long-winded wishes. :p

Lastly,HappyEndingOfBirthdayPost :D

Family.

小时候都会期待着生日的到来，那种兴奋和喜悦是最纯真的但我想我再也找不回那种感觉了吧。
小时候，妈妈对我说你生日当天是我最痛苦的一天你知道吗？哇，还要跟我要礼物呀！
当时觉得妈妈不爱我了，她只爱弟弟 :( 伤心得很。但随着时间，我们慢慢的在成长，妈妈也随着光阴老去了。现在我懂，妈妈当初为什么每次都那么说了，我也是女人那种痛真是不懂如何形容才是。
废话就不说了，我只想说，妈妈我真的懂你的用心良苦，但有时候我那份热血就是很难控制。还有，如果你问我，要什么愿望， 我会说：我要我爱的人身心安康，我讨厌的人理我远去，伤害我的人报应显灵。
:)

我和妈妈

小表妹

:D三姨

弟弟：）

大表妹。

大表妹与表弟 :D

Bought a new novel.

Fifty Shades of Grey-EL James.

This is kinda 'adult' novel is not like the style I read previously.

I found out the interest of it, so I decided to buy it and hope it don't disappoint me.

好啦好啦，我又有一种想要发花痴的感觉了。
该说些什么呢？突然有一种决心要把自己想要的事情一一地列出来，当我收到钱是一次过把它们买回来！

List-to-buy

1) Nike running shoes. 但我会等我现在穿的才买啦。 rm200++++ T.T need time to collect.

2) Birkenstock - still considering but mostly not going to buy it HAHAHAH

3) Be slim

4)Be smart

5)The lotion for burning the fat. - this is a very need, so wish I can get it as soon as possible.

6)Be happy and everyone I love be happy too.

7)Semi-pro camera- still long yet xD Need to save for my own first camera.

 Bla bla blaaaaa ..

有目标才不会觉得自己的人生没意义。所以它们都是我的‘目标’。 teeheeee 

Close your eyes,hold your breath.

No doubts no fears but dare to dream,not thought but action.

Face it and tell yourselves 'it's only part of your life.'

It's wicked,I mean the world or maybe human's mind. But what to do with it? We can't change their mind or action. So face it and don't be afraid of it.

 *lol this is the way to comfort myself,sometimes it works.

She isn't stupid,

she is just being kind.

Babes :D

有你们的日子真好。

我···

是说真的。我们之前有过很多的误会，也因此差一点就翻脸做不成朋友。但我还是想说，如果不是那次的误会，我都不懂原来我们是那么的有缘啊~

只能说，每一次和你们出街，就是那么的开心没压力！但唯一个烦恼：——要吃什么？！

哈哈哈！

话就不多说，只想说，我很珍惜你们。

:D

June.

Ya, It's June now. The month I was born 19 years ago.

Actually I don't really wanna have any celebration on my birthday,and just act like a normal day.

But then I changed my mind again. I just,maybe have a dinner with my family? And with chee wei hoimin weline jeslin them? Hmm, maybe. To be honest, I will feel like there's nothing for me to celebrate my birthday.

I don't know what I really want.

Oh wait, I know what I want.

Confidence,be confident.

Be independent when facing the tough time in life.

clown  (kloun)

a. A buffoon or jester who entertains by jokes, antics, and tricks in a circus, play, or other presentation.

b. One who jokes and plays tricks.

2. A coarse, rude, vulgar person; a boor.

3. A peasant; a rustic.

intr.v. clowned, clown·ing, clowns

1. To behave like a buffoon or jester.

2. To perform as a buffoon or jester.

"It seems plausible that folly and fools, like religion and magic, meet some deeply rooted needs in human society".

 For this reason, clowning is often considered an important part of training as a physical performance discipline, partly because tricky subject matter can be dealt with, but also because it requires a high level of risk and play in the performer.

The humour in clowning comes from the self deprecating actions of the performer, rather than the audience laughing with the performer as is common with other forms of comedy.

The actual meaning of clown seems like is the person who is giving fun and jokes to people.But do anyone actually understand the tears of a clown?

Mood was not bad this morning but then now comes to the bottom of the rock. So you must be curious why? Right? Hmm.. first of all I went shopping as I mentioned in the previous post. And now come to the night saw someone fucking stupid idiot moron doing such childish petty action. Doing such thing to make me feel guilty and let me down. If you think that I really did guilty I just want to tell you you are doing it wrong. FAILED and big FAILURE. all you did are just stupid! 

I got the choice, I got the right to decide. You do everything that harm to yourself is just to show me as a revenge? HA. Bitch please I don't even want to give a fuck on that. Your health is your problem You decided to ruin it just go ahead and I will stand aside and watching how pathetic you will be. Sorry to be mean, but now way I have to because to people like you there's no sympathy should be given. :D

Okay got to go. tired and sleepy don't waste to much time for moron like this. Waste of time.

Shopping.

Okay today is the day. I mean is the day I've been waiting for. PTPTN and my salary out at the same time. The point is, I can shop whatever I wanted to buy!!

First I need sport's attire so badly. A sports bra , a sport bag and a shoes bag. And today I had them ALL.

Nike's sport bra ,Reebok's Bag and Adidas's shoes bag. And sometimes I will feel that I want a new water bottle xD okay just ignore this part :P

I don't know why, if you ask me to spend hundreds bucks for dress I will like..Er.. let me think about it and i WILL be right back. Phewww~ disappeared. HAHAHAH.

okay I know I know I am not a girlish type I am just sporty? Maybe. The sporty girl that don't actually can do sport. HAHAHA.

Switch World.

Got myself a picture with the switch world's catalogue :p

If you read my blog before then you will know I am working at switch as part timer. And Switch is having event in Gurney Plaza which sells accessories for Apple products. Well well well, some of the item do have sales or promotion but not everything. If you guys are interested you can actually go for Belkin. :) I mean for the ipad and iphone casing. 

Oh ya I have fallen in love with these. :P

Berriessss come to mama <3

Been a tiring day but had fun and feel contented .... actually a bit guilty too :X spent hundreds for 4 items T.T

It's okay lah because I need it. :p