Why.

I don't know why, in this middle of the night. Tears dropped without really. And after the first drop I like wanna scream out and yelling in my heart. I am struggling. I feel stress. Every time I focus on something and I will get the return that disappoint me. I just cried out without reasons. Has been a long time I never cried like this. I feel stress. The thing is I don't want to let my mom down again. I don't want disappoint her again. I want to give her a better like when she grows older. But.. Can i? I always try to maximize my ability. I try try try non stop trying but is not working every time. I hate those who always show off about how well they are by using those cruel words and hurting ones. Don't you ever THINK before you talk?! Don't your brain call not to hurt people feelings?! Is not you are smart! Sometimes is the luck! Is the destiny of our life! After this I will stand up firm and face all those obstacles! Stay tuned!